Floating in the dark space of thought, I looked around and saw the web of my realities that exist only in relations to one another- I closed my eyelids, opened my eyes and realized what real eyes, sees. The detectors of our mind mapped out the intricate transparent strings of relationships that binds us together. I shook my head in disbelieve at what is laid out in front of me as what appears as the blueprint of my immediate reality. The left and right motion of my awe is met with light suddenly seeping into the cave behind my eyes as I am met with a reflection of self, merely brushing the teeth. Standing in the bathroom lost in the monotonous rhythm of the toothbrush while my mind was on screen saver mode as is the laptop sitting on, my, desk.
http://speakingoffaith.publicradio.org/programs/tolle/ Check out the podcast or mp3. Since I've been hearing all these ridiculously stupid arguments between couples lately, this interview that came onto KPCC public radio on Sunday came into mind.
Excerpt from Minute37 First you need to know what when it arises in you ah, there's the pain-body. That already is the beginning of being free of it. Recognizing it for what it is rather than completely identifying with the pain that arises.
And do you recognize that because you become aware there's a degree of emotion that is unproportionate to...?
Yes, and most often it is not proportionate to the so-called triggering event. And the pain-body has basically two ways of feeding on further emotional pain. One is through your thinking, and one is through other people's reactions. So, if you are sitting alone in the room and the pain-body awakens from its dormant stage because it needs to feed on the experience of pain. What happens is the old emotion, triggered by one thought in your head about your sad story from the past, the old emotion arises up into the mind and suddenly your entire thinking becomes extremely negative- it reflects the emotional energy. So all your thoughts about your thinking about your life and your life situation and your past and other people becomes deeply negative, distorted of course by the pain of the past. If at that moment someone comes into the room and tells you why don't you stop your negative thinking? It's making you unhappy. You wouldn't want to stop if you've already become identified with it. You would find a reason not to stop. It's an addictive thing. So it feeds on one hand, your thinking, on the other hand, if there are people around you at the time when the pain-body awakens (favorite way of feeding for the pain-body ), is to provoke a negative reaction for example, in your partner. It could be a little situation, something he or she says or does, and you push the button in your partner and you amplify something that otherwise be a relatively insignificant thing. And perhaps suddenly (the pain-body has a certain cunning intelligence to it- it knows exactly what buttons to push in your partner) it will say those things to provoke an intense negative reaction. And it will feed on the drama.
